I remember the very first time I laid eyes on you. I'm sure you don't remember because you were only 3 weeks old. You were the only chocolate doxie in the litter and I fell in love with you right away. I picked you up and held you and my heart melted. I knew we were meant to be together because you laid in my hand and fell asleep...on your back. It was hard for me to leave you that evening but I knew you would be my girl soon. Three weeks later, I picked you up even though I thought it was too early for you to leave your Mom. You cried all the way to our house and at the time I didn't know what was wrong but now I know it was because you didn't like riding in the car.
Then, several years ago, you got very sick with pancreatitis. I have never seen a dog as sick as you were. We thought we were gonna lose you back then. We weren't sure how you'd be each day when we went to visit you at the doggie hospital but one day, finally, you showed a little excitement when we showed up and when I saw your tail wag I knew you would pull through. Everything became very clear to me the day we got to bring you home. As your doctor handed me your bill I said, "I'm scared to see this." and her reply was, "Teresa, I thought you were gonna have this bill and no dog to take home." That is how sick you were, Baby Girl, even the vet thought you weren't gonna make it.
I found this poem online today and it says perfectly how I think you felt this morning.
FROM FRIEND TO FRIEND
You're giving me a special gift,
And through these last few cherished days,
The strength that you possess,
To do this thing that must be done,
That strength is why I've followed you,
And why I've loved you all these years...
My partner 'til the end.
Please, understand just what this gift,
You're giving, means to me,
It gives me back the strength I've lost,
And all my dignity.
You take a stand on my behalf,
For that is what friends do.
And know that what you do is right,
For I believe it too.
The courage that's within you,
To now grant me this appeal.
Once more a strong and steady dog,
Your ever faithful friend,
And in your memories I'll run,
...a young dog once again.
06/20/1999 - 09/24/2011